Quarter Life Crisis?

When I started working, I was really excited day after day, week after week. But now, it's like this fucking routine everyday. I wake up, I ride the shuttle, I dock my laptop, I get coffee, get some smoke, go back to my cube, analyze data, go to the manufacturing area, get back, get some smoke, do some data crunching, have lunch, after-lunch-smoke, freshen up, data analysis, undock my laptop, get some smoke, ride the shuttle home... Then WORK AGAIN!

I've been doing the same thing over and over again. I've been handling projects or so but it's the same in general: standardize work, validate, UPH improvements, capacity impact...

I still edit videos and pics. I wish I get paid for doing that stuff instead. I really love the arts.

I had my resume activated in a couple of online "jobstreets." Why? I don't get what I want in this company... Overworked, underpaid is never a cliche. I hate routine work. I thought I'll get a hang of it. But no. I want to work on projects... different projects. I also like marketing stuff.

Am I on a quarter life crisis? I need to take some time off, stop working for just a couple of days, and think of what I want for a change. Do I still want this job? Where will I go then? I'm not sure what the answers are. But I think I'm getting bored. There's no more drive. I think I'm being less productive even if a couple of people are seeing my improvements and proactiveness in my position. I'm being proactive just to get things done ASAP. But it seems that every good thing that I do, I need to step up and go one level higher.

I need to take a break and try to compose myself again. Re-assess my plans. If I'm not happy, then I think I have to pack my bags and leave.

I just need to have this big excuse so I can go on leave. Maybe I'll tell my boss that if he does not allow me to take a leave then I'll resign. Hahahaha!

Tang-ina, di ako nabuhay para magtrabaho or magtratrabaho para mabuhay. Nabuhay ako para sa sarili ko!